marisa… Feeling The nature of Me…

I didn’t know since when I was loosing my self confident to speak or
write in English. I used to be a person who brave and confident eventhough I’ve
got wrong in my prounounciation or my tenses… so today I decided to rebuild my
ability to speak and write in English…. And I’d like to increase my abilities….so
Let starts then about my story in past few days….   

This few days… I’ve got myself in misery, maybe this feeling came from
deep down my soul…. I tried not to get drowning in this feeling… pushing my
spirit to the positive acts… but this feeling won’t go away… actually this is
about my old story…. I wanna cry but my tears has already gone….. I couldn’t
describe how was my suffer deep down and I coudn’t share this pain to anyone
else…. It’s hurt and made my day worse…..

I am trying to forget my feeling right now….. so today after the
examination, I went to GM and watch a movie.  I decided to watch “TRANSFORMERS”, alone… I felt
weird….,but I ‘ve enjoyed myself lonely….but in the middle of the show, the
children on the back of my seat made a crowded situation… it was very annoying…
so far I still stand on the situation…. Cause this movie was very cool…. Actually
I didn’t interest to watch it but some of my friend who’s already watch,
recommend to see it. Yeah Steven Spielberg was a great movie director right?

 Actually I would like to ask my
friend to accompany me but I didn’t wanna bother any of my friend….because the
week of examination hasn’t finished yet….. I tried to overcome this feeling…. This
rubbish feeling…. I wanna heal myself…. I could face this feeling… this the
quote from this movie that I remember….

THERE’S NO VICTORY WITHOUT ANY SACRIFICE

I WILL DO MY BEST EFFORT TO GET MY SELFCONVIDENCE, I WILL REBUILT MY
FAITH…. NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I’VE FALLEN DOWN, I WILL RISE AND STAND UP
AGAIN…..

Well that’s not as simple as I write… but I will keep my promise and find
myself to be an independent woman in the future

Amien….